Monday, November 14



Done with the background, kind of satisfied! So, what's up with the title eh? Hurm, actually I'm not the kind of pink-maniac person. Like everything must be in pink. From toothbrush to all thing, everything must be in pink! Err....not dude, not at all. Maybe some time I have thing in pink, but not like some others that everything is like PINK! 

It's just another colour that I feel it is beautiful. and easy to look at. :D

Macam ni lawa? Haha.

Sunday, November 13



Tomorrow is SPM right? Well,

No other wishes than all the best for who is taking it!


Where's the wrong?


Those who may not find this post interesting, please, with all respect, proceed to your close button. 

This post is maybe temporary. 

I'm very very very weird with your style. When I text you, you replied with those conversation cutter. When I called you, you talk as if with a government worker. When in front of me, no words is coming out unless I force you to talk. When you talked about something, and I unpurposely didn't hear anything , (as you were murmuring, mumbling or so whatever you can call it), then suddenly you said, 'nothing.' you know, and I was like ..................@#$!%$ !!!
It's weird okay. Very very the weird. 

and you would asked me then,

"What's wrong?"

I tell you.

THIS IS THE WRONG. This crap that are we talking about. 

Why don't you just tell me, you didn't want to talk to me. It's easy aite?

What are you afraid of? We didn't do nothing wrong. Is there anything wrong? Tell me. 
I'm not an invisible person. Why are you afraid of people around you? We are not spies that we have to talk like whispering or talking in a code.

Talk with me . Not answer me. Please reduce the Okay, Yup. and the silence along the way.....
and changing the topics when I'm still talking about it. Are you bored talking with me? If yes, then why bother call me? 

I should stop by now. Cool off for a moment. Hurgh.

Thursday, November 10

Better be something


Somebody I know said to me, someone said to her that there is no such things like coincidence, everything is fated.

I know, I still remember all the things that have been thought to me. I understand on the trustworthiness given to me. I'm prepared for everything as long as it is not against my belief. Sometimes, I feel the weirdness in my head, but I tend to let it go, not making my head more miserable as it can be.

But, the story aroused the interest in me, in another chapter in my life. A new chapter, a new book or could I say a new file? I need to store, keep it nice and safely in my computer(head). Everyday a new things, a new incident, the storyline is getting interest. Many assumptions were made, sometimes, you wont even know the truth of those assumptions. It's easy to said, not easy to hold, that's why patience is thought.

Eventhough, sometimes, the same thing will happen to you, but, I'm sure, the second story has been a lot more interesting, does it? I don't mind, seriously, in fact, I want to hear to. It's not that I'm making any experiments or so whatever, I'm just observing, and you, you are making the story very interesting.

Do the person really acting in that way, or just acting in that way? I don't know, I can't answer, I didn't really know the person. You know better. You decide it.

Well, let's hope for the best, shall we? 

I found this post in my draft section, just need to post it. I don't really know what was I talking back then. Sorry for wasting your time reading this. 


#Random 1

Wednesday, November 9

Oh My


Should I say good morning? It's 12:12 a.m already. Yup, I should say good morning! Lately I can't sleep early. Before this, during my early sem oday, I used to sleep like 10.30 or at least before 12.00, but now, it is hard for me to sleep early. I don't know what's wrong with me, or him, or her, or we, or they, or us.

Ya, I know I might sound pathetic or sad or whatever you can called me after this, but I just have to write it here okay, come on, give me a chance to spill my words, my thoughts, my emotions sometimes. I'm not a good talker, nor a good writer, but just I have to write it somewhere. 

Erm, how do I say this? My last post, I do write about how I regret my misunderstood with the person I loved. Stilll, our relation did not growing very well lately. Eventually, we discussed and finally, we've come to the agreement that we should start all over again. Maybe some misunderstanding should not be considered, as well as in any relationship, whether it is friendship or whatever it is, we should at least talk and consider other's opinion, and learn to respect each other in the way they like it.

My father is not very well this couple of weeks, he coughed so hard that he hurts his stomach. He lost his appetite and as her only daughter, I am very very worried and sad seeing my daddy like that. I tried helping but I don't know whether my help is enough for him or not. I hope it is enough for him. His body becomes hot sometimes and his face turns red, I thought that could be because of his temp, he become thinner a little bit, as his digestion is not very well sometimes.  I really want my daddy  to be well enough, seeing him eating much , and doing his favourite work, gardening in front of our house. Get well soon abah!

See my abi here? He is my cute handsome Mr. Jamil Yahaya, I love you so much abi! ;)
He is very sporting in this picture, hoho. :)
My Aidiladha story? Um, I have no moods of writing it now, will updates about it soon. But, the thing that sure is sad, that my dad's "lembu korban" fell into a hole after being slaughtered and it even didn't died yet, poor for him :( 

Tomorrow, my brothers is returning to their place, and I would be left with my parents here. Hm. No comment further. 

Dear heart, please be strong, I'm sure that person has explanations or reasons for what the person is doing right now. :( 
I'm sure you are strong enough. 

"# Hmm...I know u are a strong girl a**h, maybe u need to just forget for a moment, let times heals everything :) " -her words, thank you love 

Thursday, November 3

my dear heart


Good morning to all. I've been searching idea about what I'm going to write for long. Well, all this misunderstand things keep bothering me. I know it's usual for two people who loved each other for Allah must have their ups and downs situations.

I do have now, and adding the pain which is it is with my best friend, dear sister the one I loved the most. My sister, my friend whom I respect and I can share everything with her. Usually I don't like to post this kind of cheesy-lame post but when have to think and nobody to share about. I become disturbed.

Seriously, I don't like to have argument with her. It hurts. I hate of hearing she cried. I hate she's been hurt by me. I hate when everything is not going well. 

If she denied it, I still know it's my fault. I feel guilty too much. See how misery I become. :'(

I just want to say I'm sorry then.

I miss you. So much.